I feel mixture of things - hatred of cancer and what it is doing to me on the inside, hatred of chemotherapy and what it is doing to me both mentally as well as physically but a little voice (and tonight it really is a little voice) is also saying that if my hair is falling out maybe that's a sign that the chemotherapy is actually doing its job. . .
I have week to go to my second course of AC and the thoughts of having to go through the whole sickness, oral mucositis crap is horrible but what are the alternatives? All I can say right now is that I've managed to survive cycle #1 which means that there are only 7 left to get through.